Brendan Peveril . net

… that had a recurring element that I’d forgotten about. After relationships have ended I’ve had dreams where some guy shows up with a bunch of charts and a big scoreboard showing me the various values of the things that made up the relationship. In the end they were all added together to show my net personal growth. I’d gain points for happiness I’d earned, some points for suffering and pain. I’d loose points for undeserved happiness, unneccessary pain, and major points for being a dumbass. In the end I get a score, kind of like experience points, I guess.

This dream wasn’t about an actual relationship, though, it was about a relationship that only existed in the dream. The theoretical girlfriend seemed kind of familiar, like she might have been based on someone real, but I really don’t know who it was. I was leaving her for no particular reason, to rekindle a past failed relationship.

I was getting negative points on this one.

This probably just stems from my roleplaying days, trying to break things down into scores and numbers so that people will make sense.

Beats the nightmares, anyway.